WHAT??!!

I get a ton of spam, my email filters suck butt. So I got this email this morning that I felt I HAD to share.

"Hi Chaisson
Just imagine huge d*ck in ur pants! Its real! :-)"

First off... .who is Chaisson? Second off... I tried to imagine it and in one way I can and in another way I can not. LMAO. Holy spam batman!!

Reflections, novel and problems

I started this blog to focus on the good things in my life. I wrote mostly about my kids or things of that nature, if you'll notice. That is where my happiness lies unabated. I'm usually a happy happy uplifting person with a sunshine viewpoint. I'm not just trying to make myself look good, it's what I've been told. My mom has always told me that I lighten a room when I enter it and so I have adopted the motto that I want to be the sunshine and not the rain.

Somewhere along the line my marriage has become the rain and my viewpoint on it is dark and dreary. My husband doesn't view it the same and I promised not to write in detail the issues we face. I do know his intended outcome from all that is happening is different than mine and mine is not sunshine and roses. I've been optomistic for a long time and have great difficulty being so any longer.

Through certain channels I have been asked to read a novel about divorce and its legacy. I call it my huge guilt trip. Let me say this loud and clear I LOVE MY CHILDREN with all my heart. I have wrestled with my feelings of this marriage for over a year and never EVER want to hurt my kids. But I very well may hurt them in the most horrible way possible.... yes the D word.

I am going through a horrible internal struggle right now I know what I wish could happen but is too late to have it be so and I know where I am leaning which won't be pretty. The end of March is when I felt I let go of things here with my husband and so that is where I am.

Thank you to all my blogging friends and their support. Thank you to Terry for the props for the nice blog. I will post about that and recommend someone else in turn. I already have someone in mind. It's nice to know that even though we have never met that I have blogging friends like you all. Blog ya later chickies.

What up?

Well I have been away and for good reason. Without going into details too gruesome to share let me say that my family situation is in serious turmoil. I have started this blog to focus on the positive here in my home in the hopes of finding my way but I have been unable to.

A lot of changes may be in store here and I will blog about what I can when I can. Just know that I am feverishly searching for my answers. I miss all you bloggers!

Back and busy

Hey all. Mike's comment reminded me of my slacker status on blogging. Holy slacker batman! We got back late late last tuesday after sitting in the plane for 2 hours with a mechanical problem in Atlanta. For someone afraid to fly it was daunting.

I worked that following evening PLUS all my clients have been chomping at the bit so color me busy.

I have fabulous photos of the beach and sunset and palm trees. Ahh the palm trees. I do have plans to do a 'vacation' post but alas have been far more busy than I like. Last night was the first night I went to bed at 11pm. The rest was 2 am -4am. sigh.

So I'm around and running like a mini energizer bunny but miss all my blogging buddies. Seriously. I do.

And Mike, you should be jelly belly.... the island was spectacular. ;)